I'm originally
from Nigeria, but grew up here in GEORGIA since
the
age of 2 or 3. I grew up in the small southern town of
FORT VALLEY,
Georgia....... PEACH COUNTY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS
OF '1984....
and the son of a COLLEGE PROFESSOR.
I first attended "IOWA STATE
UNIVERSITY" in Ames, Iowa [1984-1987] as
an
Electrical Engineering and Computer Science major.
Later when my father refused to fund my
continued education any further. I dropped out and
moved to the Maryland,
Washington D.C., Virginia area where I worked to pay
off an a student loan
which I had taken out from "Iowa State
University" to continue my education
with.
In the process of working, I burned myself out
physically and down to a
pulp where I couldn't even function from day to day. I
was later diagnosed
with depression and schizophrenia for which I have
been taking medication
ever since until today. As the saying goes, a man's
got to know his
limitations and I had to learn that the hard way
unfortunately but life goes on.
In 1989 I moved
back to Georgia, and after paying off my initial
student loan, transferred to "SOUTHERN
POLYTECHNIC STATE UNIVERSITY"
in Marietta, Georgia... (now KENNESAW STATE
UNIVERSITY)... where I pursued a degree in
"Computer Science" and "Electrical
Engineering"....
I dropped out in
1997 and later transferred to "DEVRY
UNIVERSITY " in Decatur, Georgia
in 2006 where I completed a degree in
"Computer Science" and "Technical
Management" in 2007.
I am currently on Social Security
Disability - on and off - since 1990 to current.
...I am both Multi-lingual and
Multi-talented...
...a US Citizen of the United States Of
America...as well as a Senior Citizen now...
58 years old (but look late 20s or 30 something)
,foreign black male, 5'11 , about 200 lbs,
salt and pepper hair with strands of white/gray here
and there, a self-described Computer
Hacker, and slightly nerdy....So, no i'm not from
around here....the USA...
I am Slim build and can still pass for a High School
student sometimes,
and yes I do get... CARDED...
Believe it or not i am a "Senior Citizen" now and have
been for a few years so far and I have to keep
reminding myself to act and live my age because
it is really sinking in mentally because i never gave
it any thought before until i saw my age...
Y E S, I
U S E T O
D R I V E A
"Z" -
T H E F A M O U S
- N I S S A N
3 0 0 Z X
E M P L O Y M E N T
- H I S T O R Y
Computer Programmer, Computer
Operator, PC Technician,
My resume is available in a separate part of my
webpage as well as occupational
info, and other information about myself.
I N T E R E S T S
I like New Age stuff, Reiki, movies, Mp3's, Sy-Fy,
gadgets, electronics,
exotic cars, sports cars, and in my spare time, and as
a hobby, I build, repair,
and upgrade computers and laptops - as well as
tinkering with various types of
Electronic Gadgets here and there, network projects
and some home improvement.
In high school (1980-84) i use to run the only
computer lab on campus after school and students
would flock in
then to use the computers which were mostly Radio
Shack Tandy TRS-80 Computers. - I remember
overhearing one of my teacher's there (biology i think)
walking past
me down the hall one day with a group of
teachers exclaming that I would never amount to
anything because no one thought anything of
Computers back then even though i was one of her
students
maintaining the small animals in her biology lab in her
classroom after school and catch some small animals
around school grounds as a class and keeping their
cages clean.
Yes, it was mostly all country down there and that's
what my brothers and i did sometimes - catch and tag
some small
animals around the house for amusement because we
didn't have any pets.
Anyway, my Computer Science teacher later asked
me if I would be interested in teaching some day since
i was pretty good in computers at the time and
everyone there was aware that my father was a well
known college professor at the local college in town
and I replied "NO" because I didn't have the heart to
teach anyone. Despite who i was, i only had just
a few friends there at school and was still basically
an outcast or shunned even though i was considered
to be popular or smart. i remember helping another
student from my Electronics Class there assemble an
Apple ||C computer for the Home Economics Class
which was supposed to be a GIFT and the school was
supposed to be sending some people from outside to
put it together for the class - We did it for the class
ourselves.
I remember once walking past a couple of black girls
and overhearing them whispering and giggling to each
other and asking "If i had any Push Power" or could
Even perform in bed. That was how i was thought of
and treated in high school - that was one of the nicer
moments believe it or not - but i did take all the shame
and embarrassment - i did graduate with Honors but i
never forgot where i came from despite what it took to
finally graduate - never had a girlfriend or anyone
similar till i moved further north to the big cities in
Marietta, near Atlanta in 1989 to Southern Polytechnic
State University to continue going to
college after transferring from Iowa State University
and Living and working in Maryland / Washington D.C.
area for a while to pay off a student loan
After a few weeks on at Southern Poly, i got an
actual job working as an assistant at two of the
campus computer labs but only remained at the main
computer lab in the end.
It was there that I found out that I could actually teach
someone something. After a while a Student came in
who didn't seem to have much of a clue about anything
i ended up teaching her how to program in the
Pascal computer language after many trials and
tribulations - she picked it up and later started her own
company doing programming from what I understood
and She ended up dating another student there to
spite me - a British exchange student - and marrying i
think - after a brief encounter with me -
stating - That I Was Still Staying At Home With My
MaMa and giving me blank video tapes of You Know
What - I didn't respond
to her but let it go - i was dating my VERY first
girlfriend at the time - an Older Woman and a Swinger
that i met on the Computer on the Internet
- Yep I continued to take the shame and
embarrassment but never - Played the Field - as the
saying goes
For those of you wondering about
my personal life,
The "Powers That Be" said i did something wrong
--- sure if they say so ---
so i don't mind going home to an Older woman at all
or being celibate I think i've more than paid for my sins
by now
Human nature saids you're only attracted to someone
who accepts you, not someone who is mean to you
or abuses you or beats on you
i only have eyes for an Older Woman -
and only one thing to say - i am a Reiki Master i don't
eat at the Y i have the magic hands of the Gods i give
the lightning i give orgasms
So, no i've never been - G A Y - but i've always been
labeled and treated as such
most of my adult life actually and I would always
wonder what i did wrong
So if you don't like that about me then we don't belong
together
So don't even bother trying to approach me because
you aren't going to change me
I'm happy just being me - and spending my money on
myself
i could settle for a "Real Wilma" for those of you who
understand what the term means....in an older woman
or sbbw...
White, foreign...Asian, indian, korean, etc -
female Older mature granny
Sbbw, or sugar mamma - who can tolerate
or put up with me i guess -
Otherwise, all the females just pose for me and tease
me these days and probably getting paid top dollar to
do it - just waiting for me to cross that invisible line
and accept their invitation
Sorry, but i only see child support, embarrassement,
shame and at least another man taking my woman to
bed like most if not all of my ex-girlfriends - probably
was never my woman to begin with but was being paid
like the rest - waiting for me to ask - Whose baby it
was - so i'll rather be celibate and look at pics and vids
i'm just old fashion that's all, i'm used to dating older
women and grannies - i do not chase any more,
my chasing days are over, you must make the first
move otherwise i don't know you are there.
And no, I usually will never never approach you that
way - or jump on you -
respect, respect, respect goes a long long way and
yes i try to be a gentleman -
you can even seduce like an older woman does...
yes, yes, just that simple - like an older woman
picking up a younger man today -
that's really all i understand - especially when you
reach out with you hand - and let me know you want
me to approach -
that's just the old fashion way for those whose who
have been around the block before - that's the old
way you take someone home or pick someone up
-
it's just understood body language - it's either a yes
or no, no questions asked and you approach or walk
away if it's not what you wanted - Only real adults
play this way - no children permitted - i'm not here to
train or teach or take care of anyone -
i usually know what that means but anything else is
really just a usual tease to me - and i don't have time
to question anything, so you have to come correctly or
else i don't respond at all - i live by the Good book -
the Bible or at least try to -
A couple of my first dates since it didn't last too long
being with a friend of someone who claimed they knew
me
from HIGH SCHOOL. she was black appeared to have
2 young girls and claimed they talked to that friend
everyday at her job (a black woman from my high
school). Anyway i built a computer for this woman and
her
sister who claimed she was a manager at a local
department store. The woman herself claimed she
work for a local government department there
overseeing the local housing - low income - for drugs
mostly. She lived there onsite with a unit with no heat
or AC which is where i paid her several visits till it all
ended. Anyway, i got to know her and her kids and we
went out from time to time in my car at the time - don't
think she even had a vehicle.
Finally one evening I guess after the computer i had
built for her we had a date and when I walked in she
her unit or apartment she appeared from her room at
the top of the stairs in a RED DRESS greeting
me loudly like as if she wanted the world to know we
were there together
I approached her at the top of the stairs and on the
right and she led me into her room where she closed
the door and I guess proceeded to undress.
I didn't bring any "CONDOMS" since i didn't
expect to get lucky at all so i told her that I would leave
and get some. She said she would wait and I brought
some condoms and came back.
We got undressed and proceeded to do our thing
when I noticed how TIGHT she was - like a PIN hole
and she said it happens when a woman has a LOT of
children. i proceed to get dressed and that ended our
night, she looked disappointed and didn't even offer
her BACKDOOR to make up for the disappointment like
other woman have in the past - guess she saw the size
of my endowment
-
Another older black woman which I actually dated
did offer me her BACKDOOR and even showed me
how and walked thru BBC for several hours and
kept calling in LATE for work that morning and finally
ended up going to work and leaving me there in her
apartment alone when we were done so I understood
why some women request BBC - but i wasn't rough
and there was no pain as she instructed me -
we dated for quite a while till it ended.
-
Anyway, as this woman in the RED DRESS was about
to end our evening this GUY who frequents her place
shows up and she has this LOOK on her face and he is
always trying put his hands on her and grab her behind
and she would push him away.
i knew there was something she wasn't telling me
with a FRONT that tight and she would THROW UP
sometimes when we went out to eat with her children
saying it was ACID
REFLUX or something but luckily not in my vehicle -
Neither she nor her sister ever paid for the
computers that i built for them and it didn't take much
to figure out that i had been had.
i built or gave away money, computers, laptops,
cellphones, free subscriptions, and now IPTV to
women i dated so it was nothing new but i knew when
something wasn't right.
i paid over $1,500 for a 3 to 6 months for a white UK
chick in Chattanooga, Tennessee for an extended stay
room
or apartment and she suddenly changed her mind and
kept all the money and a brand new cellphone i had
just bought her (stolen from her at least once) and she
threatened me - she frequented clubs
there and her male friends approached me and wanted
to date her when i
wasn't around - I guess they already were - she later
became pregnant and I haven't heard anything
since the phone calls stopped - only pictures but no
baby ever presented and nothing from Defacs of
course
And finally a young black woman from Maryland that i
met online on a swingers site I frequent who cane here
for her job and lived close to me and had a huge crazy
dog - rockwilder who charged me several times initially
when I went to visit her and later calmed down but she
invited me over which was a huge surprise especially
from a black woman but I found out she wrecked her
vehicle and was without a job so i ended up paying her
rent for at least 4 to 6 months till I finally stopped
especially after being intimidate only the first and
second time we met - it was a setup and i picked it up
afterwards especially when I stopped paying - we
didn't last too long either - she ended up going back
to Maryland after all that last i heard - she claimed
pregnancy too
There was a white chick before who who acted like a
drug addict but I went along with her since she
appeared normal most of the time - she would brag
continuously about how we were going to get married
but couldn't get a divorce from her previous husband
- she had 3 small dogs and living off her mom and
sister - I actually got her paid for her illness - SS
Disability and got her a brand new cellphone as well
and she took me on a cruise to the Bahamas
and never touched me the whole time during the
cruise and neither before the cruise when we first
met either -
later after the cruise she threatened me with infidelity
and giving her a STD and wanted a baby and ended
up threatening me one day while laughing telling me to
- Beg For Sex - over and over again with this look in
her eyes - after that I believe she moved to a cabin in
the North Georgia mountains where i had to pay the
deposit for everything since she had no credit and
gave her money from time to time and help with her
vehicle
I visited her a couple of times till she actually moved
and left and we didn't last to long afterwards - only
thing I remember were the requests for - One more
night - especially when we were never truly or really
intimate - she would always complain of chest pains -
just a tease - just a tease to get me to stay
So anyway - No OLD woman has something CLOSE to
being that TIGHT
and i dated mostly older women. The woman in the
RED DRESS was probably a Tgirl where something
went wrong or Mother Nature didn't agree with her or
something - That GUY kept coming back and i guess
he got a
PIECE when I wasn't there - BACKDOOR which would
explain the look on the woman's face and the pushing.
Yep, i was GONE -
anyway when
my last girlfriend and i were intimate in missionary
position with her eyes
closed in a state of estacy exclaiming - while in each
others arms - right there right there honey !!- and kept
saying those words - that can only mean one
thing - i could actually satisfy someone or had been
the whole time thru and she had been lying to me and
that was
just before she went into the hospital - never to be
together again that way - spirit doesn't lie -
- it had to finally come out -
and other times i used my hands and fingers without
doing oral - the lightning - and had her trembling on
the bed after giving her an orgasm - she would push
my hands away and wanted to enjoy it all herself after
i got the occurrence to happen
and before or after that moment at a point of dispair
she closed her eyes and looked up and held my
endowment and yes the magic moment did happen
between us as
well since yes she also had a gift too before I used
mine on her without her knowledge - so why did
she have to keep me for 20 years while seeing other
people at the same time without my knowledge - when
i could have gotten her treatments and been done -
i only visited her and any of my past girlfriends - weeks
at time - and yes - she was an older woman -
One last note pertaining to my last girlfriend - we used
to go out when we first me and a particular instance at
a large department store where we held hands inside
but instead of pulling me close she swung me around
like a rag doll all over the store - that was similar to
how she treated me when we went out - never
walking or being side by side on other occasions
again, i am a Reiki Master i don't
eat at the Y i have the magic hands of the Gods i give
the lightning i give orgasms
in all that time, i only remember bringing a woman
home maybe twice my whole life and maybe never
actually being intimate out of all those relationships.
most of all my girlfriends never came home with me or
knew where i lived - and only once i made it a Surprise
-
But it would always be their place -
i never brought my last girlfriend home either but a
couple of random hotel visits or her place as usual and
was planning to bring her home finally as a Surprise
but she denied my last gifts for the first time ever
- she said she wanted something different - which i
said I couldn't afford -
and Yes. - I walked away again - like usual - I didn't
Complain Argue or Fight - i let another guy take her -
and then a prior girlfriend - Yes a few motel stays and
what a Surprise when i actually brought one home -
different attitude but too
late - I already knew - because i did wine and dine
already back then when i was able to -
So like the other women before my last - mostly
BLACK -
who just looked at
me and said - CHILD SUPPORT - no questions asked
and that was it - it was over before it started -
wouldn't even touch or approach me - Denied me on
the
spot - so no I've never been BLACK or anything else
Anyway, i'm able to scratch or stroke your ITCH or a
particular
one in your "backboor" for one and many other places
as well and it only took me one
try to verify the first time thru that i did get it right -
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- So it's not at all like BBC - nothing close - so no
worries -
i don't give any pain, not even a scar to remember but
pure pleasure that you do remember during the
different type of treatment(s)
- you only fight the treatment because it feels that
good
could be considered a form of INTIMACY or FOREPLAY
similar to what most of you never experienced before
- REIKI is love - Hands of light - Hands of love -
- i just may even be able to stop your runs or running
and other problems or issues - in your backdoor -
- would finally be a relief for you wouldn't it ??
you would finally be able to leave your house again
and not be tied to your stool among other things
No guarantees at all of course and results may not be
immediate - if any at all -
Sometimes, may even be -
- PERMANENT - different treatments for different
situations
For those interested you know how to reach me -
i might add in conclusion, my same hands that
provide the LIGHTNING to others also gives me
permanent
relief when i stroke my own self and require no
additional attention whatsoever.
No, i don't have to ever go anywhere else to get relief.
or ever require a female companion.
i have no worries to content with, yes this is the life.
In the end, the urge TOTALLY - disappears -
and cures many other diseases as well -
and yes diagnosed with an increasing high "PSA
NUMBERS" test after tests which is sometimes an
"Enlarged Prostate" or even feels or looks like it... an
unusually large hanging sack basically like a orange
- and sometimes may feel a little uncomfortable
over a year ago now -
also non-existent now -
i did experience a sharp jolt of pain in that area and
for a second i shuttered and froze taking the sudden
pain - and then it was gone as briefly as it came -
but i expected more would follow since i already had
an idea of what it was - but no more pain followed
and i have waited many months and maybe over a
year now -
hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
it was just my Magic Hands of REIKI-
again i am a Reiki Master i don't
eat at the Y i have the magic hands of the Gods i give
the lightning i give orgasms
How long does it really really take make a baby
on top if you were only Interested in something else ??
And you know that's probably the
last time you'll
ever ever get to see that pretty lady's face because
she probably doesn't ever ever want to see you or your
face again - She nailed you and she got what she
came for - and she's going to get paid -
I never made or left a baby
anywhere past and present - you know the government
would never ever let you walk or get away with
something like that -
Maybe that's really what first
impressions are really all about and if you really wanted
someone and really gave them a
chance the whole darn time or was it just a lie and or a
joke to shame someone - so none of it really ever
happened ???
you know the government will
always have the last word with a paternity test and you
know what follows -
yes yes yes verified and forced
payments for child support-
----hallelujah---hallelujah---hallelujah----
and yes everyone will know and can find out -
no I don't have to pay for someone else's baby or one
that doesn't even exist as a few have requested
I can hold my own -
and no I still don't pay any child support at all at all at
all -
But on occasions i have taken care of someone elses
child before, a couple of times actually so i know what
it's like and i know what child support means - so you
don't have to teach me -
that stunning gorgeous pretty lady
wasn't worth all of this pain and suffering and running
the whole darn time was she ??
she has probably just moved on to
the next guy and the next - that's probably the only
thing she ever does - and always gets handsomely
rewarded -
so if a pretty smiling lady meets
you and leaves you very quickly and never returns your
calls you
probably know why - especially if she sends or gives
you your note or things back - it's pretty obvious -
Just keep walking away, you'll live - I promise you -
they say there really really really is
someone for everyone so never ever have to settle for
what someone gives you or leftovers from a party -
Just keep walking - someone
may actually find you and hide you away forever -
again i am a Reiki Master i don't
eat at the Y i have the magic hands of the Gods i give
the lightning i give orgasms
Most of my life I've been labeled as
gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy, unwanted,
outcast, etc. and so forth and carry an
invisible woman's purse for
everyone to see. All you have to do is mention my
name or show my picture and
everyone knew who i am - oh !!
That's that guy !! - I'm probably pretty famous by now
- the one that took the
shame and all the crap and still refused to impregnate
anyone and pay their precious child support and be led
by a woman by dog collar or collar
and chain especially a black woman who will put you
down no matter who
you are - I wouldn't play their game
and be black. Even my fellow Nigerian's disowned
and ridiculed me
saying that I didn't identify as one of
their kind. I was basically a nobody or trash and
didn't mind being that at all
as opposed to yielding - I
already have one dog collar on me and more would be
company - hahahaha
besides they need someone to
make an example of - A willing scapegoat or fall guy
is hard to find in these
days - The show must go on
people !!!! Show us your tickets at the door -
i am a Reiki Master i don't
eat at the Y i have the magic hands of the Gods i give
the lightning i give orgasms
nobody will teach me so this is how
I learn - Otherwise they want me to Beg Beg Beg for
sex like an animal - like one of my previous girlfriends
put me in a corner and on the spot and said those
words to me - Beg Beg Beg for Sex - then
i knew - the same woman i went out with for years and
never screwed - she had to pop pills to even attempt to
do it and got chest pains when we got close -
so i laid my magic hands on her chest a couple of times
and the
pains would go away - yep yep - and that was how we
finally left things - we actually took a cruise together
but no romance at all the entire time so you know why
-
I even loaned her one of my credit cards at the time to
use and yes i wined and dined her at the time and she
ended up maxxing out the credit card to the tone of
several $$$$$ and she wouldn't even pay the
monthly payments on the credit card i gave her - she
want to give me a check - many times prior and
afterwards - someone i was basically taking care of her
- so yes, I cancelled the credit card without telling her
and paid it of myself and things were going down hill
from there since I stopped giving her money and wine
and dining her - it was over eventually
I explore reiki with my hands as well
as using it to stimulate instead of doing oral - Started
out as
research - I am a Reiki Master and I have lots of
research projects - even some that brought tears to my
eyes - yes I always wanted to believe and now i do -
i did find the human spirit - i did find the human spirit
and yes i do use my fingers to see how you feel down
there and make up for doing oral just like other guys
do.
but women have actually turned me away before they
saw how it felt. They pointed to the door and said to
me -
don't pick up anyone on the way home, and laughed at
me - yeah, i've been there before and that was just
barely first base - it was already over before it began
and i always went home early - another one bite the
dust -
no i wasn't really BLACK - like what they were used to
nor did i ever plan to be - I'm not from around here -
- yes I have a few health problems
and a older mature granny is the best that I can do -
i specifically have a speech problem or impediment
among other things and i've had it all thru life and
growing up and even now it has gone noticed by
medical professionals except for a few instances by
friends and relatives -
yes i had this even before and after I left the
Washington DC / Maryland area when i had my mental
and physical breakdown where everyone swore i
turned into a woman and that my voice actually
changed - it would have stayed that way if it were
actually true - turned out it was just a black guy
adjusting a horn to play a prank
so you see why I don't get along with black people at
all - and that black guy was famous and even today i
guess since people still mock me especially with
phone calls to see if my voice changed over the
phone and using three way also if I don't answer -
Anyway, i still look, act and speak normal most of the
time - despite my speech impediment which never
went away
i'm also impotent and there are many different types
of that condition as well for those of you not aware
and that too could go undetected -
many many more health problems, guess i'm pretty
loaded with them -
in my whole life I never knew what
luck or a 2nd chance was even if it hit me right in the
face, and yes I lived a very sheltered life -
and still considered to do so, so I
still keep doing the same darn thing and same
mistakes as you call them -
nothing else to do except what common
sense and logic tells me - as I observe in everyday
life - thats all I've ever known
from those who actually made it or
made it to the top - or are still alive at least -
A very very sheltered life indeed, as a kid I
remember raiding the local garbage dumpster
scavenging for electronics discarded by our
seemingly rich or well to do
neighborhoods - yes our toys came from there and
mine still come from almost the same place
today - discount places and
bargain basements - They said we were rich but we
actually grew up very poor or like the poor -
in the end i have to add, i was an abused child and
yes those memories are slowly coming back - i
remember having to step up to the plate hoping that
i would take the brunt of the punishment so my
other brothers and sister would get off easy -
sometimes i was actually the only one that would
get punished almost like someone had something
against me - i guess you know where i got my
speech problem after constantly being beaten to
an inch of my life.
i would always be wondering
when the abuse would end, all the way thru high
school i think its probably when it would come to an
end or just subside.
Guess now you can
understand why i don't talk after growing up with that
kind of life and my father constantly promising
to help me with my speech problem after being the
actual cause of it.
i speak only because i had to speak going thru
school as i was growing up and even then there was
always some type of hesitation as i stood up in class
facing everyone.
i did make it thru and almost no one had a clue
but some of my instructors wanted me to follow in
my father's footsteps but i would kindly grin and
said it wasn't for me.
his college education was mostly in psychology
and he used that to control his family so you could
almost imagine what he was like -
after high school i was ready to get as far away
from home as possible, even if it meant the other
side of the world.
yes, this was my "Coming to America" - yes it was..
and i guess those memories were buried for a reason.
so when i said we lived like we were poor, now you
can see exactly why - almost like prisoners of war -
i should have Turned long long time ago after living
thru something like that or not even supposed to be
alive today - many many times -
Almost 18+ years of living hell and then the
remainder of my adult life, and then a pretty lady
suddenly wants to have my child - ?
HELL - NO - !!! after all my pain and suffering - I'm
never going to take care of anyone else but myself -
Even a fool, trans gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy,
unwanted, outcast, etc.
have learned their lesson quite well by then -
hope you can see why i'll be popping pills for the
rest of my remaining life just from the voices that i
used to hear if nothing else -
Yes i remember the incidents very well from my days
of dating when i was called every profanity under the
sun - when they exclaimed - you are looking for
what ??? - or the famous quote - You are Ugly -
yep - and are only offered Child Support instead - or
ended the standoff - mostly because I wasn't a Bull
for their BBC purpose -
yes, a lot of women did walk away from me during
those instances and i'm glad they did - story of my
life -
So when the moment comes and I get a No No
because my equipment doesn't qualify to be a Bull -
just inadequate - only good enough for Child Support
- that's my cue to walk away again -
No hard feelings - not my first rodeo - so I guess I'm
not good enough to handle any kind of woman at all
without having to pay
- point well taken - now everyone knows what
I can't handle and to stay far far away -
Now I don't have to worry about taking care of anyone
else but myself and spending my money on just me -
don't have to keep blowing money on someone else
and believing in fairy tales.
Such a joyous ending since I already figured that out
which I why I just kept walking away -
I just play my part and walk away, or the other
outcome where they look away, or look down or just
cough, telling me I'm just too ugly or gay, I get the
same
message after 40+ years, and I should have built a little
resistance by now, still playing the part and walking
away -
Don't know what I supposed to feel anymore but I still
recognize the same cue's from the females which
never changes so there's nothing new to learn -
I got the message loud and clear, it's just a show and I
just keep playing the same part, nothing hard about
that, and just waiting for my time to come like
everyone
else as long as it takes - No I don't believe in fairy
tales, why would I after having a life that's been
forever ruined with no hope whatsoever.
I know the difference between reality and dreaming,
and what's actually possible -
A peaceful and graceful end it will be, why would I
complain - I was actually enjoying it -
But then i get looks of disgust and disappointment,
isn't this what everyone wanted - for me to put on a
this same particular show
everytime - falling back on a sofa or chair mouth wide
open struggling, gagging, and choking on something
with someone on top of me forcing it down my throat
- while everyone applauds and claps !!!
- sorry but I
didn't get the joke - am I doing something wrong ? -
I'm just playing the part you asked me to play - maybe
when it's all over I might just actually understand - but
until then as the traveler would say - I'm just passing
thru - just passing thru - just passing thru
Believe me, nobody cares what you do behind closed
doors in the comfort of your own home - but paying
child
support payments for 18 years is a whole nother
story compared to the price of a simple "Rain Coat" !!!
Yes - Yes - You have to pay the magical "Child
Support" for 18 long - long - Years !!!!
That's why it's so magical and Women love it !!!!
They actually get "PAID" !!!! -
And if you don't pay - You can go straight to jail and
don't stop to collect $200 -
Until you can Pay Pay Pay !!!!
??? Capeesh ???
. The magic behind ""Child Support" -
No thanks, i'll pass and keep walking away -
- That's one magic trick i'll try never never never try
to perform -
Trust me I'm not afraid to wear a "Rain Coat" -
One of my Co-worker back in MARYLAND where i use
to work In the late 80's
pull me off to the side and gave me that piece of
advice and i knew exactly what he meant -
- He was a BLACK guy but Everyone would say
he had - JESUS - in his eyes -
??? if you know what that meant ???
- And yes, you could tell a part of him was
DIFFERENT -
For those of you who don't fully understand the
picture: Any man, whether "Straight", "Gay", "Bi", or
whatever orientation they are can
make a "BABY", but it doesn't make you any
"STRAIGHTER" than anybody
else, nor does it get you anymore respect than you
would normally have-
They just made a "BABY" and that's all it is to them,
other than the
fact that they will be taking care of that "BABY" for
the next 18 years
- one way or another...in the form of "CHILD-
SUPPORT".
So, before you get up to the "Altar" and say "I DO",
you better make
sure you aren't doing it because of any of the above
reasons - because
there's no reward down the road. If somebody saids
the "BABY IS YOURS" or "I LOVE YOU"
- verify it with a test. If you still want to say "I DO",
then consider
a "PRE-NUPTIAL WEDDING AGREEMENT" in case
you are "WRONG" -
There's no shame in accepting what and who you
know you are, rather
than what others would like you to think you
are -
- The bottom line secret is that a BABY is made out
of pure fear for a - G A Y - M A N - that's it - either
the male and/or female "finally" has an orgasm out of
fear of death or something else or their partner
causing them bodily harm or something else and the
woman suddenly gets pregnant - or Virgin birth -
You know you never hear from that poor woman again
because now she has a label just like the rest of us
welcome home, welcome home, is someone loving
you ?
i've met a few of them and never knew why they kept a
low profile, small world indeed - i feel your pain - and
i don't mind if you need someone to share it with -
now you know who i am - am i not good enough for
you compared to person who did this to you ???
One of my WHITE bosses in the mid 90's told me the
same thing in so many words about a couple that he
knew - that the woman would finally get pregnant out
of just plain fear -
--- Psychology - MOTHER - NATURE - always finds a
way - Psychology ---
i have a male indian friend who asked me for a Screw
Driver once and i told him he could just buy one at
them store.
Anyway, many years later after he moved to another
house i rode with him in his car and right before we got
to his house - he Passed Gas in his car - and basically
went nuts.... he turned red and slammed down the
accelerator pedal in the car. we were at his house in
seconds...
.... usually when you do this, you say excuse me and
say roll down the windows and we would laugh about
it...
We got to his house and we were out of his car and in
his house. He walked to the bathroom and pointed
at the door hinting that I needed to use the
bathroom like he was commanding me or something
and just kept pointing at the bathroom door.
Sure, i went in and urinated and came right back
out and the guy was gone...
Months later he now works out of the basement and
keeps asking me to come over to fix something and
then his indian wife would call as well to get his home
camera system fixed...
After several visits i just quit going over since he just
likes cheating people and has robbed me of things
before by substituting the wrong electronic items for
me to take as payment which were basically worthless
or antique.
he was always Bragging about his wife ever since the
incident when he called me one day begging for a
Screwdriver before moving
from his old house - I guess he got caught in a sting
or scam and needed a way out but I wasn't it -
he was always teasing me because I liked Old Fat
White women and always trying to rub it in
he even took me out for ice cream not far down the
road a couple of times - then i never saw him again
Anyway, i knew he wasn't sleeping with his new so-
called wife and because nobody brags that much
since she actually appeared to be interested in me
and was desperately trying to make sure the guy would
remain friends with me since i was always calling him
out
i haven't seen the guy in months except taking me
out for pizza and disappearing for hours
i waited for him sitting in the pizza parlor with a crowd
of people. i went outside from time to time and
walked around thinking maybe he was somewhere on
his phone.
I finally just sat down and waited...and he eventually
showed up with no explanation and paid for the pizza
and we went back to his house where his wife, kids
and parents were. We ate pizza and then i drove
home.
Haven't seen that guy in many months and he is
Always asking me to come over and I always know he
and his family wants free computer work done as
usual which usually takes 4 or 5 hours....
just an example of someone who doesn't think you
know as well as his family.
American black women are famous for this type of
behavior by threatening men with Child Support.
it has been going on for as long as i've been living
and i've talked to some of them on the phone who
were cheating on their soon to be mates from out of
the country in this same matter by hiding their mail,
green cards, etc - in hopes of forcing them into child
support.
i listened as they were laughing about it on their end -
yes, this actually happened and it was eye opening -
so be careful who you date or associate with because
it could actually end up costing you - avoid these
types of women like the plague because after all these
years they still have not changed -
They appear to have a monopoly on this type of
behavior.... and yes i've dated a few of them and lived
to tell about it -
Even my first girlfriend, an older black woman with a
husband working out of town tried to pull the same
stunt back in 1989-90 or so
Never told me they were still together, and we
actually dated for several years - yep - first girlfriend
ever and first close call -
A little birdie told me after all these years, i never had
a clue - or reason to doubt her -
She left an identifying mark on me the whole time we
were together just like my last girlfriend (she was
even white) did also
as i found out when she bragged about it in front
of me at the rehab center where i visited her every
month - saying - i was never going to leave her or find
anyone else - and said i was cheating on her -
Been about 10 years or so since we've been apart at
that time just months ago - and nope - no one else -
and the nurses there would "TEASE" me about
visitation rights just like a prison - and laugh - yep..
mostly all black American women -
Her sister called a few weeks later and said she had
passed after being in a rehab center and that i should
come and see her $1500 urn that was supposedly
made of GOLD -
I started to go several times but just didn't feel right
since my health was not that good.
One time or maybe the last time her sister called, we
talked a little while and suddenly i heard my
presumed decease girlfriend in the background
yelling "DEVIL - DEVIL - DEVIL" - repeatedly -
and the sister started calling her name and yelling as
well - soon there was a click and the sister hung up
the phone - i was laughing myself - my presumed
dead girlfriend was alive and just got turned and was
taken by the devil - just months ago - lol - lol -
I should add that her and her recently deceased
brother had a really special relationship and this
sister as well but seemed the only one who
would occasionally say No and not get involved
leaving things between my girlfriend and her brother,
and yes they were very very close - involved -
Anyway, i gave her a online movie rental subscription
from Blockbuster video which i was paying for when
they were still in business and she loved it because of
several embarrassing situations at the video store
when i was with her so she didn't have to go back
there
later years up till current i gave her an IPTV setup and
streaming service setup with equipment and
everything for watching all the cable and movies her
and
her sister and her boyfriend wanted worth about
$1000 give or take which i was providing at my
expense and free subscriptions so
they didn't have to pay for cable - all they needed was
internet service -
when i broke up with her years later they were
begging for that streaming service setup back since i
turned it off from remote and you can imagine why
they wanted it back
Anyway when we first met -
Guess i just interrupted something and finally one
night after watching tv there and they turned out the
lights and i was showing myself out and my girlfriend
said no, this way, pointing to her room and i started
staying over for the first time , which is why i guess i
was there with them unknowingly for 20 years or so.
i knew there was some reason the brother would
keep staring at me and never left the house.
Before my girlfriend supposedly got sick both her and
her sister sat down in front of tv with me once and
discussed their sex lives in front of me since her sister
were was always interrupting us when we were in bed
together.. just opened the door without knocking and
looked right in... saying she wanted me to take her to
the store...
On occasion i did actually take her to the store and
she flipped up her dress at least once....and
wearing nothing much underneath and laughing of
course...
Anyway, my girlfriend had a big smile on her face as
i looked back and forth between the 2 of them and
the sister was angry and wanted to join in pretty much
since they shared their men - and my girlfriend
agreed and let her speak while we were in the room
together -
Nothing happened since my girlfriend got sick and
ended up in the hospital and rehab not too long
afterwards -
i then overheard that my girlfriend had finally given
the sister permission to be with me since I hadn't
made a move...and it only took a few phone calls to
figure it out since the sister finally started answering
the phone for my girlfriend -
Anyway, before all of this when she first moved there
after she got out of prison after going in for throwing
something at her sister's boyfriend in a fit of rage and
i gave her a ride to her new home where she would be
taking care of a disabled lady.
i drove up one day and she was making cake and
ice cream for the local taxi drive who was a black
fellow she told me about.
she was mesmerized by his endowment so she had
to get a taste and see what it was like.
They were actually involved for years since i lived
out of town from her and she failed to mention this
of course.
Probably still dating the same guy now so once
again i was just extra extra extra - she just needed
someone to use like always - i was never good
enough the whole time and i couldn't compete with a
Bull -
she was even sleeping with her sister's boyfriend -
the
same one that had put her in prison initially as i did
finally find out especially when she finally moved in
together in the same trailer park with them.
when I wasn't around he would take over and was
always full of laughs whenever I would come over.
I guess he was privy to the family secrets when i was
being totally left out and i discovered only years later
by other means. Yeah, total setup since I never really
had a girlfriend but was only sharing someone.
So who was actually cheating and who was true ?
There are other stories there which is why I eventually
left but im not saying anything else -
i had other prior relationships where both sisters
or mothers and daughters propositioned me so this
wasn't the first time or my first rodeo -
Especially a different one that kept asking me, If it
Was COLD ? - on 2 different Occasions and Yes we
-
were alone and this was my Ex-girlfriend's Sister and
she wasn't even around - especially after the cruise
ship and trip to the Bahamas incident as well as
making me - Beg Beg Beg for Sex - when she couldn't
even perform herself without getting chest pains and
popping pills as well as Maxxing out my credit cards
and after paying all the Deposits for her Cabin in the
North Georgia Mountains -
Of course different mother's and daughter's as well
,that's all i'll say -
Also had an older black woman who was one of my
computer clients who had an older adult son who
was sick and live out of town. She would tease me
all the time when i was there fixing her computers
while she would swing her hips back and forth and
giggling at me but of course i just did my job.
One day and maybe another time she had me to
pump her clogged toilet stool and even asked if it
was fixed when i was done and paid me $100 for my
time.
After that or maybe before I would give her a ride to
various places in my car and suddenly she just
wanted me to go by myself and she didn't want to
come anymore - i would notice at times she was
always getting other people to do things for her and
sometimes when i was there her help or guest would
say to me - you're here too and I didn't get it.
She called me several months later and i guess she
wanted some other things done since i did fix her
tv's, cable hookup, phones, stuff around her house
and probably the toilet again since the septic tank
people said she needed a lot of work done because
she had an old house and she dropped her phone in
excitement in guess, in addition to working on her
computers where she paid a flat rate no matter how
much work i did or what her expenses
were so i ended up doing a lot of her work for free
and actually paying out of my own pocket because
she would always argue with my price since she
knew my father as a professor where i grew up in the
country basically and probably working on or fixing
our own house and own things but that time i finally
said NO and i never saw her again -
Not the first time
i fixed somebody's toilet since i grew up in the
country and we usually learn to fix our own things.
People always surprised for some reason when i fix
their broken toilets and other things, i just never got
it but glad i could be of assistance..
We had no money and so we fix things ourself in the
country where i grew up. We learned from our
parents instead of going out to play with the other
kids in the neighborhood.
Anyway, There are many ways to get TURNED or
possessed by the Devil
- there's a section about my personal
spiritual experiences in another part of my website -
i am a Reiki Master i don't eat at the Y i have the magic
hands of the Gods i give the lightning i give orgasms
Actually met my first girlfriend on an internet swingers
website back then so i thought it was safe -
Yep, she taught me quite a bit but then decided to
take me for a ride that i would never forget -
She ended dying in her sleep from a "heart attack" -
but i wasnt there though - one of her children found
her the next morning before i called her -
And yes, i was the one that took care of all of the
girlfriend's kids - as well as others -
and here i am today, still walking away -
so in the end, I still don't believe in fairy tales unless
you can actually prove yourself to me -
i will never never ever delude myself or believe in a
dream -
even then, nothing is ever ever guaranteed and you
know that as well - so watch where you step -
because this could still just end up being a simple
meet and greet - nothing more - story of my life
as well - which is why I never mind leaving empty
handed - or going home alone -
---you know people may start talking if they catch us
together since I don't mind being out in public -
so the ball will always be in your court if you can
actually take the heat and still concentrate on me -
---some things you just learn to get use to -
....that's the kind of life I learned to accept -
where everything is either forbidden or out of reach -
- i only believe in what is real or could be real -
Respectable - means just that, something you just
can't
fake - even if someone else already made a name
for you or you have one yourself -
i am a Reiki Master i don't eat at the Y i have the magic
hands of the Gods i give the lightning i give orgasms
For those wanting to reach me, my email addresses
and contact links are located off the main page of my
website -
SHAME and Embarrassment is forever for me and I
learned to carry it well - this is all i have to offer any of
you as the public will
tell you - what you see is what you get according
to the public
Sorry folks but SHAME and Embarrassment is the only
thing i've ever known
Basically when the public MOPS the FLOOR with you
and
suddenly someone picks YOU up and OFFERS you a
FAIRYTALE life or PRESENT you know they want
something from you knowing that your life is forever
RUINED in the public's EYE. You know no one will
ever stand by your side again after that kind of
publicity
especially not in PUBLIC. SO what you do but live
just for the MOMENT because that's all you'll ever
have - JUST FACE. YOUR OWN REALITY - and
don't cause anyone else pain and suffering by sharing
your life with them -
Remember from the movie - Top Gun - where the
instructor told - Tom Cruise -
l'll Fly with you Son -
Somebody stode by that Guy at the Very End -
Someone had to to make it all worthwhile - The other
female instructor even came by his favorite restaurant
playing his song and said -
i heard the best of the best was going to be here -
Even in another movie or spinoff - Iron Eagle -
The black instructor stode by his student in the very
end
and spoke up for him and wouldn't let him fall
- As long as you don't step on Anyone's feet going Up
and Down the Ladder of Life -
Somebody has to stand up for you or all that is all for
nothing -
Instead of Just Making an Example of You
Thats Why Some of Our Soldiers die in Vain or a Guy
dying for a pretty woman because he just wanted to
either do the right thing or be a Hero -
No one was there to stand beside them -
No one - No one - No one
That's why a lot of people just walk away sometimes
and just mind their own business sometimes because
the results just aren't
worth the Effort -
Not worth the Effort -
Not worth the Effort -
Not worth the Effort -
Now you know -
So in the end when you want something or have a
question you just gotta play dumb and spell it out like
the whole movie - Phenomena - by John Travolta -
said it best with the pretty lady - the doctor - and his
friends -
just gotta be specific -
Be specific - Be specific - Be specific -
That's What the Human Spirit is All About -
or you
just missed that moment that may only come once in a
lifetime -
and its now Gone for good - Gone for good - Gone for
good -
Only have that one chance to make that first
Impression -
Only have that one chance to make that first
Impression -
Only have that one chance to make that first
Impression -
like the ship's captain told -Tom Cruise - and his buddy
- you screw up just this little bit -
- You'll be flying a Cargo Plane Full of Manure out of
Hong Kong - in TopGun
its all in the movies folks -
its all in the movies -
its all in the movies -
its all in the movies -
Guess I'm flying my own Cargo Plane because its the
only thing i ever knew how to do was - Just Walk Away
- and i have no Regrets - because no one was ever
there to stand up for me or by my side -
I did this all Alone -
Like one of the theme Song's for - Top Gun -
Saids - Destination Unknown -
Gotta Go it alone -
its all in the movies folks -
its all in the movies -
its all in the movies -
- So how does it all end ?
Like the movie - Powder - with Jonny Depp -
Where the Albino Guy finally went home to Nature -
Only place where he was Accepted -
He was Welcomed with Open Arms as you Saw in the
End -
He went Home -
He went Home -
He went Home -
So i might not have been -
Your Best of the Best -
but i was definitely -
My Best of the Best -
and Something or Someone is or was Watching -
And Pulled Me Up After
Someone or Everyone Else Put Me Down
I'm just a Poor Broke Guy who finally got his College
Degree in Computer Science after several school
transfers but doesn't have a Penny
to his name - No Money - No liquid Assets - Nothing
- And Owns Practically Nothing New or Nothing at All
This is Me
Just have Experience to show for my existence - I
actually did Exist and this is not just a Dream
I'm originally
from Nigeria, but grew up here in GEORGIA since
the
